Peace

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

i just need to screw up my life once so badly, till everyone thinks i m a loser, then maybe i ll find myself some renewed reason and strife to get successful someday. you know go take drugs, drinking or something. if you all dont believe me, its true you know. i mean read the papers, u hear tonnes of stories abt young kids screwing up their lives, and because of the lesson learnt or because they're changed the are renewed with a fervor that normal pple like you and i would only dream about. not too long ago, some teen who travelled to malaysia often to perform gigs, was caught for trafficking drugs. u know he was actually pretty good with his band and all, had a future but screwed up with the drugs. well guess what, after prison, he went to do charity work, some anti drug thing, community involvement and all, guess what, he got an award ok, some big award recoginised by SEA ok, not some singapore small fry award. dude this guy's successful now man. and you know this isnt the end of the list. its pretty inexhaustible man.

was talking to ww earlier today, mentioned that the teachers were expecting many many many many people to fail the mid year. expectly so, considering its our first shot at the full paper. it only has a hell lot of topics per subject thank you. and my revision is moving like a slug. great. more reasons why i shld go screw up my life. the joke was that if u could get 30 points u'll probably be like top 100 in the school or something. now that was funny. but i doubt it. i m sure there are people(note the term used, not geeks or nerds. i do respect these people) who actually are ready or at least somewhat prepared for the mid years who will no doubt score over 50 points and all. great.

man i m feeling all emo and all. i think i need to change my genre of music again. u know take a break from all the heavy stuff. its probably getting to me.

1. i need to go running. quite badly.
2. i should go get a new blogskin for my birthday.
3. i m not looking forward to mid years.
4. i need a time machine or something. you know movies always have this clishe part where they ask the lead if you would have done it in another way given a chance and they always say no? yea i think i m a rebel now. haha unless of cos this is part of the screw-up-my-life part.

i wanted to end this post with lyrics from breaking benjamin's song 'water' but i realised if i did u guys would start thinking i m going suicidal and all. lol. so well i ll end of 'all i ask of you', phantom of the opera soundtrack. lol.

no more talk of darkness,
forget these wide eyed fears
i m here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you.
let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
i m here, with you beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light
you re safe, no one will find you
your fears are far behind you.

all i want is freedom,
a world with no more night,
and you, always beside me
to hold and to hide me.

then say you'll share with me one love one lifetime.
let me lead you from your solitude.
say you'll need me with you here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too.
thats' all i ask of you.

haha now i m feeling all fluffy and all.

take care people.

[ Peace out! ]
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