Sunday, February 25, 2007

when i said that i would follow,
it was with an honest heart.
But i dint fully understand the cost


i actually have a fair bit on my mind that i wanna blog abt.
runs,thoughts,family camp,bball training,small things that brighten my day,school,songs,rants..

but in the interest of time, i ll cut short.


the only difference now is like rojak and orange peels,
the pineapple got mouldy, but the wine just gets better.


take care people.


[ Peace out! ]
at10:13 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

hey people. yeap its been a pretty long time (i think) since i updated so heres one for you guys..

cny got pretty scaled down this year, dint visit alot of places, dint do much this cny in general i guess. i guess everyone is getting a lil lazier everyyear to get into the buzz of cny and all, which is really quite sad. oh well i cant really complain considering i m not in that cny mood anyway, kinda put off and put away with other things this year.

well its one of those rare occasions in the year where i have more then 15 people in my house right now. so some of you all might be wondering, WHAT ON EARTH ARE U DOING BLOGGING WHEN U HAVE GUEST RIGHT? well i thought abt that too, but heres the run down.
all the uncles and aunties are either sleeping, mahjong-ing or sitting in front of the tv talking. the children are getting amused by my cats, for like 3 hours already, which i m pretty surprised they still are, either that or they are glued to the computer screen. so yea that leaves me with pretty much nothing else to do.

ok i woke up earlier then normal this morning cos i wanted to shoot some hoops. well i did, but the sad part is, i had a super bad stomach ache which forced me to well run home. DIPUTS MAN. so i ended up doing abt only a quarter of what i had intended to do in terms of drills. great.

i FINALLY restrung my guitar. wee. it sounds a lil weird now. but i think give it abt 2-3 days and it shld sound great. wee.

schools kicking back in tmr. zzz. i still gotta finish up my vectors tutorial, which is pretty hard to do considering my house is noisy like anything now la. ____ suggested i lock myself in the toliet and study there. i m like huh? lol i think i ll get claustrophobic if i do that la.

i m still trying to figure out if theres any homework for econs and gp. yes youve guessed it right i m feeling pretty bored.

i need to exercise man. all this new year goodies are gonna kill my health man.

ok i cant really generate anymore random thoughts, so i guess i ll end here for now. take care people!


i never thought it would be this hard.
dang.


[ Peace out! ]
at4:15 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

this isnt just goodbye,

hey people. back.

its been a really tiring week, just glad that the weekend is coming soon. not really looking forward to cny this year actually. dont know why. i thought for once a quiet chinese new year would be interesting. hmmm.

well thankfully, i dont think i m sick anymore. looking forward to gorging myself in cny goodies, and get fat. haha.

my mouth filled with blood, from trying not to speak.

the match with yj was really. man. i tell yj people playing damn dirty la. they freaking stick like glue onto you, grabbing you shirt, tripping you, basically damn dirty la. plus the fact that the ref dint give a shit about calling for this kind of fouls, so dumb. it boils just to think abt the match.

vday celebrations was ok i guess. very very tiring though. aft the match and all, going home to bath and change, was already like what nine? went for a simple celebration, well not exactly simple, but lets just leave it as that. by the time i got home just poof man. so tired. so much for homework.
well on the note of vday, here's my vday quote, yea its one day late but well i thought i shld write something mushy in my blog once in a while. lol.
'love doesnt make the world go round, its what makes the ride worthwhile'
aww, right? haha.

slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful.

i realised that ____ and ____ look SUPER alike now. man. this world is becoming more and more freaky.

oh, i got back all my results for common test 1. here it goes..
physics - U (pretty expected)
maths -E (wells, thats ok i guess. at least i passed, lol)
chem - E (quite sad about this actually)
econs - D (i think i topped the class with a D-.- wth.)
gp - D (this is really demoralising)
well on the whole it seems quite stable. lots of room for improvement. fair bit of careless mistakes. fair bit of things still pretty unsure abt. conlussion, work harder havin. lol.

ok i m gonna stop here for now. weekend weekend here i come!

this is i cant stand you.


[ Peace out! ]
at9:57 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

hey people.

i m feeling very lazy to write in paragraphs so here we go..

- tmr's match with yj. man.
- physics is really chim.
- organic chem is just huge.
- vectors has so many new concepts.
- i realised that ____ and ____ look VERY alike. freaky. but cool. haha.
- i made a record, i didnt exercise for THREE days consective. that was over the weekend when i was running my fever. record for 07. lets see what the next is gonna be.
- my guitar needs some work man. i think its in pretty bad shape D:
- i need to get another month worth of contacts.
- i need to spend some time replying emails. its been quite awhile.
- vday's tmr. heha.
- ponders.
- I LIKE GP LECTURE COS MDM ANION IS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUNNY! (despite the fact she made me famous overday)
- i realised i have alot of nice songs in my ipod that i never really listened to. lol.
- craving for: punggol nasi lemak, CHOCOLATES, fast food. hope the throat infection heals FAST.
- weekend withdrawl.

ok random thoughts.


close my eyes
let the whole thing past me by
there is no time to waste
asking why
i ll run away with you
by my side.


[ Peace out! ]
at9:15 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007

the only difference now is like sprite and 7-up,
the alcohol got involved, but the lamb was committed.


[ Peace out! ]
at2:38 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

i m feeling really sick.

ytd morning during chem started feeling a lil seh. feverish and all. by the time it hit econs i was feeling really cold. well of cos i had the option of taking early leave, but life just strikes u at the precise time huh? i was going to have a match with cjc. the fever+the throbbing headache assured that i wasnt gonna get anywhere near the ball. and i ended up taking the score. wtf right?

by the time the match was over, my headache was a lot better. thank God for panadol. when i got home and took my bath, i was pretty much freezing. when i took my temperature, well done la. 38.4. i felt so damn sick and cold, i wrapped my self in a jacket, covered myself head to toe with my comforter and well tried to get some rest. its horrible.

i ll probably need to go see a doc later in the morning. which probably means i m gonna miss ypg and probably church tmr as well. well done again la. so much for looking forward to the weekend.

so on top of this stupid sickness that struck at such precise timing. i m feeling pretty sick inside too. too many thoughts, too many claims and too many conclussions. maybe the fever fried my brain a lil, but when i look at things like the way i see it, it just makes me shrug, and well wonder how stupid i could be. it forces me to get so disgusted, at what things really are.

fuck.

so somehow, things are gonna get better. its gonna be really trying, but it will right? wouldnt it?

i dont wanna talk about that anymore, i guess people are just gonna start complaining again about me ranting. lol.

o level results came out ytd, well seems like generally, people did pretty ok i think.
my legs are so damn sore, i dont think i can run in awhile. stupid fever.
random bruises are making me worried.
my body clock is proabably pretty screwed right now.
there seems to be something wrong with blogger's posting. i m sure i made this in normal size, somehow it just turns tiny.-.-

randomness.

ok i ll stop here for now. gosh, i hope my fever gets better REAL soon, like by 12 today. it sucks to fall sick.

theres nothing else i can really do right?


[ Peace out! ]
at4:03 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

hey people. i mback.

well its been a really exhausting week. just cant seem to get enough rest. last two days, i ve been really struggling to stay awake during classes. just seem to live in a wolr dwhere acceleration due to gravity is more then the normal 9.81ms^-2. odd.

well cjc's up tmr. the pressure to perform tmr is really high. i dont want to end up making stupid mistakes, missing passes, failing communication or wasting opportunities. wed's training was pretty good for me, i think personally, at least i was doing pretty well. for one of the matches i managed to bring in two fastbreaks out of the 3 baskets. so that was quite nice. haha, my three also managed to find its way to the basket on another of the matches. well i think if i can perform at wendesday's standard with more team communication and teamwork, things should work out fine. of course theres the big if.

xcountry official results are out. apparently i got 35 instead of what i thought of 32. no idea how that came about but oh well. at least i know i was compromised during the run because of my leg. and at least i learnt one very important lesson.

o level results are out tmr. man. time's just passing so quickly. reminds me of orientation and all. great fun! i miss those days already. today when my class went out for lunch, then we stopped by the playground, i was just sitting on the swing, and i sort of reminsced orientation. i realised that you were always there. with your sweet smile, bubbly face. a cheerfulness that i ve seemed to have forgotten over the course of january. ok i wont talk too much about that before everyone starts asking who and what-.-

you with your camera.


so
anyway, the weekend is coming again! looking real forward to that.


i was just doing some reflections, with my qt. and i guess i really aint working too much towards my goals. got a lil off track, kinda busted myself, but one song came to mind, even as i was thinking about everything. well like i said in a few posts back, about writing some lyrics of nice songs, heres a nice song.

by mark schultz- I am


I am the maker of the heavens,
i am the bright and morning star,
i am the breath of all creation,
who always was, and is to come.
I am, the one who walked on water,
i am the one who calmed the seas,
i am the miracles and wonders,
so come and see, and follow me
and you will know.

I am, the fount of living water
the risen Son of Man
the healer of the broken
and when you cry i am
your savior and redeemer
who bore the sins of man
the Authour and Perfecter
Beginning and the End
yes I am.

I am the spirit deep inside you
I am the Word upon your heart
I am the one who even knew you
Before your birth
Before you were

I am, the fount of living water
the risen Son of Man
the healer of the broken
and when you cry i am
your savior and redeemer
who bore the sins of man
the Authour and Perfecter
Beginning and the End
I am.


Before the earth (i am)
the universe (i am)
in every heart (i am)
Oh where you are (i am)
The Lord of Lords (i am)
the King of Kings (i am)
The Holy Lamb (i am)
above all things

Yes, I am Almighty God your father
the Risen Son of Man
the Healer of the Broken
and when you cry
i am your savior and Redeemer
the Authour and Perfector
Beginning and the End
I am.


[ Peace out! ]
at9:04 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007
chemical bonding

we all know many types of chemical bonds exist. metallic, covalent, ionic and well basically alot. many types of forces also are guide these bonds. such as your famous van der waals forces of attraction, hydrogen bonds and electrostatic forces of attraction between oppositely charged ions.
these bonds are partially responsible for reactions that occur, of course its lattice, atoms involved and many other factors also contribute to reactions.

for example, giant ionic structures are soluble in water, but not in non-polar solvents. because of its favourable ion-dipole interactions between ions and water molecules, it leads to a release of energy which facilitates detachment of ions form ionic lattice for hydration.

over the course of time, i ve discovered a new bond. actually its probably a very old bond, but people dont really talk about it. i ll call it the z-bond.

probable reason why the z-bond is not classified under any TYS or textbook you find is because of its ability to take many forms, undergo many reactions, undertake different chemical/physical properties. it is because of its ability to vary itself like that in many different variables which makes it hard to classify specifically.

we all know (8-n) is the number of bonds a particular atom will form. however, z-bonds have one very specific property, that is in forming many many bonds.(ie. it is a very strong bond). z-bonds form between almost any two molecules. under different conditions and reagents for each molecule pair. unlike normal bond pairs, z-bonds dont just 'share valence electrons' or donate 'spare electrons'. z-bonds have the ability to allow its atom to lose its electronic configuration altogether, to form z-bonds. hence explaining why z-bonds are very strong. however, this strength can sometimes be associated with instability. i ll go into more detail for that later.

z-bonds like i said earlier, can form between almost any two molecules. in special cases, it can be more then 2. but i wont go into detail of that. anyway, z-bonds can associate it self with favourable ion-dipole interactions, to water-ion interactions to well just about anything. HOWEVER, these favourable interactions can only occur under certain conditions. as mentioned earlier, these vary on a case by case basis. which is why, z-bonds are sometimes associated with instability. ok im gonna stop on tat before people think i m crazy. lol. i m just trying to experiment stupid things.

go figure.

i passed my gp ct! ok its just a low pass, but i guess i shld be thankful it isnt a fail.
still waiting for other results.
got a match with cj on friday. goodness.
doughnuts?
more homework.
bball.
bball.
2.4.
more icing please. before therapist complains. haha.

ok i m blog more next time.


[ Peace out! ]
at9:26 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

time is running out! i cant explain myself at all

i got
many things to blog about actually.
1. x country sat
2. reflections on that
3. sat's ypg/choir
4. sat's dinner at mad jack
5. sunday's events+reflections
6. more thoughts about the coming week.

but i m really not in the mood to write it down. if u really wanna know u can ask me. haha.
there's been a fair bit of my mind. sat's ypg was really thought stirring. i got so many things on my mind now. i just need to find a time to sit down and slowy think things thru.
-bball camp
-family camp
-doughnuts. LOL. dont ask why.
-back to school syndrome

and alot of other stuff, lazy to even list them. sick. i m feeling so random.

i wish i could put my foot down and put an end to this all. but its hard u know.

when the oceans rise and thunder falls
i will soar with you above the storm
Lord u are King over the flood
i will be still
and know
You are
Lord.


[ Peace out! ]
at11:10 PM

Friday, February 02, 2007

hey people!.

well i dont really feel like writing a long update+i ve got a fair bit of things to do so i ll just make this one short.

i went to see my therapist in the morning. she said my legs were getting better i think. but i lost her when she said it was getting worse or something. she was TOTALLY against me running in tmr xcountry. if u really wanna know the details, ask me! haha.

i missed bball training today. zzz. i dont want to comment on this one.

dinner was great. had a good time catching up with people, laughing and well just having a great time. its always inspirational to be in church.

so i m sort of in a dilemma. i m thinking if i shld run compeititively or not. esther said i was already compromised shld i choose to run, that i woulnt be able to perform to my best. well i decided to decide tmr. when i do some warm up runs at home b4 i head down. if things work out then i ll go for it. if not then well.... i ask myself why i m so insistent of running. well thankfully i found my answer. i m not gonna disclose it, if u really wanna know, haha, well even if u ask i probably wont tell you. =P.

i need to spend more time with things that are important.

time is running out. i think before i know it, things will come and go. i ll need to learn to cherish.

'to run with angels, on streets made of gold
to listen to stories of saints new and old
to worship our maker, thats where i ll be
when u finally find me
i wish you were here...'


[ Peace out! ]
at10:48 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

i m back! yeap from the shitty common test! thankfully the bulk of the week is over. man.

ok heres what i think of common test..
physics: i cfm fail ok. the last 2 questions which is worth about half the total mark i dont know how to do. so yea
maths: well i surprisingly could do most of the questions. i mean as compared to what i thought would happen. i m only worried i made a lot of careless mistakes. which is usually the case >.< its like u do the paper until damn shiok, then get result fail because of careless mistake-.- lol.
chem: A WHOLE PAPER ON ORGANIC IS GAY OK! well it turned out not so bad i guess. i was having fun for the most of it. except for this part on section C, i dint study hybridisation cause i couldnt get a thing of it. AND IT CAME OUT FOR ONE PART OF SECTION C. ok 5 marks only-.- heng. but i think chem shld be quite ok..
econs: two words. haze office. all the way man. haha, if u dont get it, ask.
i might just fail clb. lol.

ok thats common test week which i thought i would just die getting over the week..
my class pple are the best. we had a pretty good time after the econs paper today. it was really funny! but i m not really in the mood to type it all down, and i dont think it sounds very funny by typing. lol. so if u really wanna find out, ask! haha.

its gonna be a pretty long day tmr. have to
1. visit my therapist in the morning.
2. go down to school for training. well its only a short time cause i have to
3. rush down for my dental appt.
4. need to FINALLY restring my guitar. i ve been wanting to do that since dec. but i guess alot of things came up
5. oh and have to head down to church in the evening. some programme on.
6. need to figure out how to work a hot bathe.

well thats about the agenda. i think. i was suppose to meet jingwen and crys at orchard to do some shopping for _____ present. but it seems like its abit hard, everyone seems busy me inclusive so i guess we ll get it next year =P.

oh i realised today that ________ has very beautiful eyes and a lovely smile haha. ok stop. but seriously.

i shall post some nice lyrics the next time i blog. haha.

well i m feeling great! quickly ask why!
haha u ask le then i tell you lor. lol.

ok take care people!


[ Peace out! ]
at10:07 PM

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