Peace

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

heyy pple.

well i some how got the feeling to blog so yea.
aniwae. been bballing alot these days. its kinda shag. espc the PL training. goodness the coach there is kinda crazy. tonnes of physical work there man.

life is getting on alot more smoothly now. i cant figure out why but wat the hey right? if it works out...

i been digging into bryan adam's music recently. i dun noe why but i had a sudden urge to listen to his songs some time while e guys and me were slacking at mac. den i realised hey his music is nice^_^ very soothing. meaningful and err, its just the type of music u can close ur eyes and put a picture to it. nice.

its dark and rainy outside
but there lies a stream
a stream tat brings fourth a light
a light that brings fourth hope
a hope which brightens the day
rain all u want today
'cos aint nothing gonna bring me down

*only the strong survive*
- allen iverson

[ Peace out! ]
at6:32 PM

Saturday, February 18, 2006

hello pple.

ok so i realised this place is very much stagnent. but i guess i dun care much about tat.

i realised as well i ve been tinking bout lots of stuff. rigging alot of past memories for no apparent reason. funny. sometimes.

i guess things end somewhere. i ll be waiting fer the end of this one. i went for a swim wif me bro todae. had a good conversation bout lotsa of stuff. i guess one thing stands out tat well, things these days arnt just the same anymore. call me old fashioned but i rather be lyk this den some sick pyscho person lyk some pple. i cant understand how they actually prick their conscious to do such things.

well i just wanna put an end to it. this book has been opened far too long now. i needed to put a end to it a long long time ago.but i guess i held on for something i cant and will not see anymore.

ok tats it. fullstop.

every memory of looking back
every memory which brings back these thoughts
every memory that brings back THIS me.
goodbye, mistake.

[ Peace out! ]
at10:58 PM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

with reference to the post made earlier..

i m really disappointed.
really very dissappointed..
u noe. i never knew tat when a person is placed in such a situation, he would actually start to TELL*(note the difference being tat in the previous post all things mentioned were all in the mind. nothing was ever vocal) lies or half truths to make them have a more fitting position in their own delusions. goodness.
this is really quite terrible. its saddening to see how humans would do just about anything to get that position. its terrible. and i especially did not expect to see it from someone i knew close to my heart. saddening.

sometimes i wonder why i put myself thru this. its awfully painful to see such 'events' and to be able to nothing more den sigh. i m sure all this will evoke a certain amout of displeasure within the audience but hey i m just expressing my views. like it or not well tats really none of business unless u want to make it as such. i ll be glad to entertain for awhile provided u re willing to listen.

ok aniwae. take care pple.

[ Peace out! ]
at12:41 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

hmmmm.

i ve come to realise another fact.

depression found in the sapians are often are result of self fulfilling thoughts that have no factual truths. these thoughts are generated only because there is a will to have and develop these thoughts. when a certain situation is placed in the scenario, these self fulfilling thoughts will develop and causes truth often to be distorted. in addition, it deludes the mind into believing watever these thoughts want it to be.

i dont think you quite understand that so maybe i can give a more illustrated example.

a group of friends. of cos there would be this 'outcast'(note the inverted commas.) who believes that his good friends have something against or cannot be bothered with him/her. now.
given the situation he/she is looking for, he/she will start to develop thoughts along lines of the above stated. this situation could refer to anything, maybe its just them hanging out and for some reason he 'WanTS'(note the inverted commas again) to feel depressed. or it could be a period where these friends have not communicated for a span of time and he/she feels i m not wanted or dislike or watever deem fit the situation. (note this is a choice made by the relevent individuals with no basis of truths whatsoever.)

now you could argue back that maybe these are facts and truths. or maybe his/her friends could explain and bring about a solution to why he/she is feeling as so. Now the problem is, this person, would have by this time, already developed enough depressive thoughts to drive out any thoughts which could possibly make him/her feel better UNLESS these are directed straight at the point where it could just undo the damage. it kinda makes sucks to know the brain is capable of self destruction._.

anyway i m gonna stop here for now. these are facts ok. FACTS. dont lie to yourself if u for some reason choose not to believe. you know it. you know u never actually got the evidence before stating such remarks. And Thats the Reason why you could never.

anyway, on another note.

life is something joyous.
i m not kidding. its a fact. sometimes we rub off each other yes, get a lil depressed, see things we dont lyk some shit results for Os. but hey find joy pple. find it.
living in sg itself is arleady a blessing enough. yea but u probably wouldnt know wat u got till its gone right? well i hope it doesnt take all tat before u actually realise how** lucky and blessed u guys are.

i dunno. mayb its really me. but i tink if we all take a step back and look at things at the REAL FACTS OK. FACTS ARE TRUTHS NOT PIECES OR INFOMATION MADE UP IN THE BRAIN.

ok i ll stop here now. i hope u guys just realise i m trying to help. if u tink i m shooting at u guys or something i ve already failed in this post.

take care pple.

somethings were meant to happen
somethings were not meant for happening
but one thing is for sure
what i said was true
u just dint believe it.

[ Peace out! ]
at11:27 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006

so todays the big day.

its judgement day or dooms day or watever u call it.
yea screw.

so i got my results. and while everyone else seems to say its not tat bad some even say its good. personally, i tink it sucks. lyk to the core suck u noe tat suck. its tiring.

yea sure i cut my prelims by half but lyk wth? i still wun be getting into sa by any shit of scores. sighs. this is highly depressing.

i din get any As, now tats already sucky enough. my english got a screwed up 3. this is getting more depressing. i m stopping here.

ok sure some pple did worse. well i feel sorry but geez, looks lyk i beat every expectation except my own.

now tat sucks.

[ Peace out! ]
at4:01 PM

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