Peace

Thursday, September 29, 2005

heyy peep..

well i dunno if any1 still comes here..
but wth, i jus nid to let out

been getting my prelim results over these days..

its nt realli helpin the least bit
i did do my part.
fuck i did more den haf ever done before ok?
dun sae i din try

but if u ask mi, something is fuckin wrong and i carn figure it out..

thanks fer tagging people.. at least i noe some people still care.

[ Peace out! ]
at3:11 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

so here i am again..
each time i read
the pain grows within..
sometimes..
i wish i could jus let go of dreams..
my hopes..
but no..
i jus carn..
so i continue to live in this pain..
guess u wuldnt realli noe..
aft all..
love can be so blinding.

so blinding until u dun see mi standing here

[ Peace out! ]
at12:29 AM

Sunday, September 11, 2005

prelims carry on tmr.. still feeling darn empty inside.. she's been taken..
lala
yea i noe tat silence.. a silence longing.. a silencing wanting..

someday.. mayb u wuld realise..

cos i m still standing here..

the rain nt getting any lighter

but heck the rain..

at least i noe u re happy..

all the best too all those muggers out ther..

[ Peace out! ]
at9:04 PM

shattered dreams

do u noe wat its lyk?
the feeling inside?
wen i was in you..
do u noe the hunger
and thirst
of a deer panthe for the water..
to see the long awaited oasis of life springing with hope of a renewed beginning..
only to be shattered by a broken mirage..

do u noe wat its lyk?

do u noe wat its lyk..
to feel the hope of a dozen lights shinning upon u..
joy unspoken of..
happiness unknown of..
only to be broken by blind fantasy

do u noe wat its lyk?

do u noe wat its lyk..
to be standing on the edge of the mountain..
feeling lyk u could just die..
and the world would pass u by..
after all.. who really gives a shit abt a 20cent life..

do u noe wat its lyk?

do u noe wat its lyk..
do haf fear so much fer the uneventful..
to long and dream tat fear wuld not consume reality..
only to be found on tat mountain one dae..
on your knees bleeding..
hoping for so long..
dreaming and wishing fer another chance..

but no.
everything in this world wuldnt give it to u.
escp wen no one realli noe..
wat going on.

[ Peace out! ]
at8:53 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

THE SCIENTIST (ACOUSTIC) - COLDPLAY-----------------------------------an incredibly simple but fantastic song to play on an acoustic guitar!(CAPO ON 3RD FRET)Bm7 (x20202)G (320003)D (xx0232)Dsus2 (xx0230)A (x02220)A7 (x02020)INTRO: Bm7 G D Dsus2 Bm7 G D Dsus2 Bm7 G D Dsus2V1: come up to meet you, tell you i'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are Bm7 G D Dsus2 i had to find you, tell you i need you, tell you i'll set you apart Bm7 G D Dsus2 tell me your secrets and ask me your questions, oh lets go back to the start Bm7 G D Dsus2 running in circles, coming in tales, heads are a science apart G D Dsus2C1: nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part G D Dsus2 A nobody said it was easy, no-one ever said it would be this hard A7 (D) oh take me back to the startLINK 1: D G D D Bm7 G D Dsus2 Bm7 G D Dsus2V2: i was just guessing in numbers and figures, pulling the puzzles apart Bm7 G D Dsus2 questions of science, science and progress, do not speak as loud as my heart Bm7 G D Dsus2 tell me you love me, come back and haunt me, oh and i rush to the start Bm7 G D Dsus2 running in circles, chasing our tales, coming back as we are G D Dsus2C2: nobody said it was easy, oh it's such a shame for us to part G D Dsus2 A nobody said it was easy, no-one ever said it would be so hard A7 (D) oh take me back to the startLINK 2: D G D D Bm7 G D D Bm7 G DOUTRO: oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo Bm7 G D ah - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo Bm7 G D oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo Bm7 G D oh - ooo-oo-oo-oo-ooo

[ Peace out! ]
at1:53 AM

diu.. so i m jus getting a lil more pissed den i shld b getting.. is it the 9 hrs of mugging a dae thingy or is it jus me..

dreams.. well well peep i m in the mood to blog alright.. if i dun get uber pissed sometime along the blog i guess itd b a pretty long entry..

ok.. where to get started.. its been a pretty muggging week.. averaging a gud 7-8 hrs a dae.. been mugging maths lyk shit.. i m so gonna kill myself aft the o fer all this mugging.. does it feel gud? somewat i guess. but its realli killing my system..

dreams.. now lets start to get a lil trash talk if u call it.. personally i feel its jus some reflection..
i had a dream.. i lost it.. i tried so FUCKING hard to try to get it back.. well i m pleased to say i got my dream backk.. i could feel the hope of seeing the dream come true once more burning inside of my heart.. i wish.. i hoped.. lyk i nver could feel before.. becos i tout my dream would come true.. but u noe wat peep.. THE TRUTH HURTS.. BIG TIME..

yea.. jus realised thru flipping thru some sources.. dreams dun realli come true.. unless u dream tat tmr u will b alive.. den of cos i guess ur dreams come true alot more den my.. i realli wanna thank all those out ther hu still rmb me.. somehow.. wadeva msges tey send.. its realli nice.. although i sucks tat u dun receive dem frm peep u wan to.. call mi an asshole fer tat.. i dun realli care much now..

i don wanna care animore.. i WISH i could put the past away, all these hopes and dreams away to concentrate on my O lvls.. BUT I CARN OK? if u dun noe mi well enuff well tats me.. i nver asked fer much.. i guess u could sae tats why i nvr got much.. but not the point.. peep are jus plain irgnorant.. all their care and concern is so FAKE.. its fukin surreal lar.. i dun wanna care.. but i m sorry i carn.. i haf to learn how to feel happy.. after all.. if it makes u happy.. den i shld be right? tats the way it shld be..

life realli sucks.. i noe its lyk u peep might tink tats becos i m a pessimist.. well tink again peep.. live a dae in my shoes and tell mi honestly if life is so dam nice to be in.. i m sorry..

so tis is wat life is gonna b abt.. can i change it? not by human ways no.. life wouldnt allow it.. i wish i could learn to trust and find comfort in it.. BUT WIF ALL THE FUCKIN LIES GOING ARND HOW DO I DO TAT? geezz its lyk.. wen everything is so fake how on earth do we define truth..

ok so i m getting a lil sickk now.. i wish i could jus die but.. no.
i ll live..
becos
i still believe..

man wat kind of conclussion is tis..
mixed.

on broken wings i m falling
it wun be long
on scared knees i m bleeding
gotta find a way to believe it
in a search for so long

[ Peace out! ]
at1:05 AM

Saturday, September 03, 2005
somebody had to be a btich about it..

yea.. some1 had to be a bitch about it.. i m lyk super hot headed now.. your discreetion for viewing tis blog entry is advised..

so one dae u realise something is wrong.. u try to figure out wats actually causing all the misunderstanding.. well u realise its partially ur fault.. cos u dao someone(omfg but nvm..) well nvm.. u admit str8 into ur mistake and hope fer things to start to come back working.. back into place.. she says she needs time.. u give it to her.. but let mi ask u peep out ther.. wen peep nid time to think, DOES TAT GIVE THEM A FUCKIN GUD REASON TO GO FUCKIN FLIRTING ARND WIF OTHER GUYS? u noe wat.. unless u got a problem in ur thinkin, i d tink u agree wif me.. correct mi if i m wrong.. tats wat i feel.. well tats still ok u noe.. nvm.. so wen u try to adress the topic.. she says, i m veh confused, i dunno i dunno.. DEN HU THE FUCK NOES>? Here I AM, CRYING MY FUCKIN HEART OUT, u can go and slowy think and flirt and haf fun, but for 1 fuckin moment can u think abt me? so u maybe thinkin thru all tat stuff.. BUT DOES GETTING CLOSER TO ANOTHER GUY FLIRTING WIF HIM HELP? HELL NO!

bitch part 2..tats nt jus the worse part.. so i keep on tryin to call her/sms her and watever other fuckin measures u can think of.. she doesnt pick up my calls, doesnt reply my smses NOT UNTILL 2AM AND SHE FUCKIN LIES TO ME TELLING ME I M FEELIN TIRED I WANNA REST.. the truth is she was talkin wif tat guy till so late until she couldnt talk anymore so worn out wat haf u.. TIS IS THE FUCKIN TRUTH.. AND IT REALLI HURT ME LYK FUCK OK? if she had jus told me the truth.. it d b so nice.. but no.. she choose to lie to me.. she chose to KEEP ON LYING WIF NO FUCKIN INTENTION TO LET MI IN THE LIGHT TILL I FOUND OUT MYSELF.. put yourself in my shoes peep.. how the fuck would u feel? so i carried on for so many fuckin nites waiting fer her sms or reply jus to sae' i m sorry i feel tried now.. i ll talk to u some other dae..' SHE NEVER HAD TAT OTHER DAE OK? she was merely runnign away.. i had told her so many times.. if she dint want to carry on, if she wanted to stop everything and move in different directions all she had to do was to ask and tell.. i would.. i was prepared to leave her if she was happy.. no.. tat wouldnt make her happy.. ONLI MY FUCKIN PAIN COULD.

so tats bitch part 2.. i m still cool right now.. i could control things over.. aft some fuckin long time.. u peep noe wat got her back? BECOS THE FUCKIN GUY DID SOMETHING WRONG TO HER.. IF NT FER TAT FUCKIN MISTAKE TAT PROBABLY BE STILL FLIRTING.. and me? lyk some born loser waiting at the corridor wif paper pieces on the floor.. tats ok still.. i m glad tat at least i ve got a 2nd chance to mend things..

bitch the 3rd part.. well now i m the one hu gets emotional.. i m the one having problems repairing.. can u blame mi for it? i got devasted time aft over and over again.. she told me she realised i was more den some shit to be left ALONE while she was having fun.. i told her i wanted to take things a lil more slow now.. so tat at least we could see if things were going wrong.. haha bad move.. u guys think its bad? read on to find out..

so one dae we went out to study.. its quite perfect realli.. we had out fun.. did our studyin.. went home happy.. i tried to call her.. fer a few daes.. sent afew smses.. NO REPLIES OK? wen the reply finally came.. she said she was busy. tired. gud nite. ok so wat the fuck do u want mi to make out of tat?

i was still cool about it de.. i tried to understand whr she was coming from.. BUT IF U ARE CONTIUALLY TELLING A PERSON U ARE BUSY TIRED AND FOR WADEVA OTHER FUCKIN REASON ALLL i mean ALLL THE TIME>. how hard is it to beleive animore.. tat 'reason' was used for over 2 mths btw.. u peep go tink abt it urself and tell mi if i m over sensitive or being human.

i m not gonna talk abt the last bitching.. its still inside me.. i tryin to cool it off b4 i say anything..

all tis time.. all i had wanted was to make u happy.. all my smses, calls, everything.. was to find out wat was wrong, to mend, to leave u if it made u happy.. well no.. u dint care.. u dint fuckin care wat i did it for.. all u wanted to was enjoy life.. to see MY PAIN.. well i hope u re happy now.. if u re nt i m so sorry.. go find another sucker to play wif..

tats jus abt it.. i had to let tat off my chest.. if the person ever reads tis entry.. tis is how I FEEL. if u din noe i can feel.. u prob wuld go cryin and sobing.. i ve seen it before.. tis is wat i make out of it.. if after all i wanted to care fer is gonna treat mi lyk a piece of SHIT. dun expect much from me either.

[ Peace out! ]
at8:25 AM

Thursday, September 01, 2005
tear my heart open

heyy peep.. back once agains.. mann been getting a lil slack ade.. sickkening..

i dun realli feel lyk writing now.. my touts and feelings.. wats been going on.. jus veh confusing.. thers a realli nice song tat realli speaks of how it feels..

i tear my heart open i sew myself shut..
my weakness was tat i cared too much..
and the scars remind me that the past are real..
i tear open just to feel..

take care.

[ Peace out! ]
at12:28 AM

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