Peace

Thursday, January 11, 2007

its been a really tiring week. its thursday already, and i got one more day till the weekend which i really need. i think its been the one of the toughest weeks in my entire jc life so far. sleeping pass midnight everynight for one isnt a healthy way to get to school fresh. and its been work i ve been doing ok. on top of the homework, the past two days have really affected me more than just the physical stress of studying late into the night and struggling to keep awake in lectures. its been pretty emo these 2 days. many things have happened.

i dint want to blog down these thoughts, cause i thought its really unhealthy, but i guess its worth blogging. its never easy to walk this road. when everything in your body, every cell and organism with logic of this world tells you this, but u know, u have to do otherwise. its SO hard to tear myself away from these things. its so hard to accept truths and circumstances that challenge the very person in you. what would you do if u knew everything, how things would be and all, but yet be unable to change it however negative and lifechanging it may be?

but i thank God. for grace. for grace and his provision of strength, for without it, i think i would have left this world a long time ago. and still now his grace holds me. a song we sang in ypg sometime back still comes to mind, and i think it sums up pretty adaquately.

Thank you Lord,
for the trials that come my way,
in that way i can grow each day,
as i let you lead.
And Thank you Lord,
for the patience those trials bring
in that process of growing
i can learn to care.

But it goes against the way i am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all i do.
Cause when those trials come
my human nature shouts the thing to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

Thank you Lord
with each trial i feel inside
that you re there to help lead and guide
me away from wrong.
Cause you promised Lord
that with every testing
that your way of escaping
is easier to bear

But it goes against the way i am
to out my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control
of all i do
Cause when those trials come my human nature shouts the thing to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

I thank you Lord
for the victory that growing brings
in Surrender of everything
life is so worth while
And i Thank you Lord,
that when everything's put in place
out in front i can see your face
and its there you belong.

its a really nice song. hopefully, someday i ll be able to express myself like how the song writter in the last part of it. In victory.

well thats all i have for today. i better get some work done. take care people.

[ Peace out! ]
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