Peace

Saturday, March 25, 2006

so many desicions
i dont know where to start
do i go with what my head tells me
or listen to my heart..

[ Peace out! ]
at11:10 AM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006
what a charm.

i m tired.

physically, mentally, spiritually drained.
so many depressive thoughts and well. so many things happening so fast tat u cant keep up. or rather it hurts SO much to go on. what drives humans to go tat extra mile.

i dont know why i blog. sometimes so depresively. YOU noe, its not lyk i WANT this lifestyle. i CANT help it ok. its my brain its the built of my thoughts. its not lyk i WANT to think lyk this. i ve been DRILLING to trust, to put full and absoute control into God's will. but its hard. its lyk this super lonely road. tat it seems even peers. dun seem to see.

its not lyk i want to be lonely. its not lyk i want to see only darkness. it really hurts.
to try your best, but it never seems enough.
never.

just put trust. tat the Lord will bring u thru. if He is the only fren so let it be.

The grass withers, the flowers fade. But the word of Our God stands forever.
isaiah 40:8

nothing really matters.

[ Peace out! ]
at10:06 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
tasty

hello pple.

yea i haf once again no idea why i m blogging but i just decided to.
aniwae i m feeling somewat a lot better from previous post although i guess things always haf a way of getting to you. so yea.

sku is kicking in wif its syallbus and stuff. its getting better. not the most beautiful picture but its better den anything worse.

i started listening to The cranberries again. its quite funny how i started the somewat obsession again. there was a grp of students playing guitar, so i joined them. den one of them played zombie. it was really nice. although simple chord progressions. since then i ve been pretty stuck on cranberries. lol.

aniwae i gtg prepare for fam. camp now. catch u all later.

I thought nothing could go wrong, But I was wrong. I was wrong. and i m in too deep.
you know i m such a fool for you.

:)

[ Peace out! ]
at3:40 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

i m very upset now.

it hurts lyk krap. the passing sa pple when i get arnd the pp area. sucks.

quite a fair bit of sa pple who were put to sr haf alrdy gotten a call frm sajc for a transfer. i ms till waiting..

its really hard to hold on to this hope. i guess its almost confirmed tat i ll be staying here. i miss sa.

i mean its not lyk sr is such a bad place and all. but i guess its just a HUGE culture shock.

ok right its terrible ok? i dun blame anyone but myself

i its hard to trust and put complete trust when such things happen.

I'll be fine, you'll be fine
is this fine? I'm not fine!
ok i m not ok....

[ Peace out! ]
at8:32 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006
dejection

i feel terrible now.

i miss sa now lyk nuts. i mean lyk NUTS.

i m not ok ok? i m not ok.

teh culture the pple.
its sucks.

i really dun feel lyk writing the whole thing out for u guys to see. it really hurts.

the only good thing tat brigtened my day was this joke they made in a handout on requirements for taking h1,h2 subjects. the joke was..

Subject Level Remarks
KI h2 L1R5 for o levels must be less then 9, english language
must at least be a a1/a2

dun u tink its funny? i really think so. its lyk the ultimate joke of the day. if u guys dun get it nvm. the hint is i m in srjc. haha. wat a joke.

ok before i get too pissed. u guys tc kay. cya arnd.

[ Peace out! ]
at6:40 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

ok i m back. haha.

today was fun. ypg was kinda hard to swallow but yea i guess its about time.

bball training was just. woohoo. had a number o matches andstuff. i realised tat the guards dun really lyk to pass. they just solo and solo and solo. which made me kinda pissed. o wells.

i realised tat. somethings dont change. no matter how long u dont think abt it. somehow when it all comes back it lyk bam! haha. shiok. it was a short but memorable time. i sound kinda weird i noe but hey i cant help it. ok nvm if u all dun understand. i dun tink u will but tis is just to echo out my thoughts. haha.

so dishonestly
nothing more then goodbye
yet so dishonestly.

[ Peace out! ]
at11:49 PM

hello pple.

u noe i m wondering what i m doing right now. why am i blogging? i couldnt really think of anything to blog about but it occured to me tat i just had a notion to come here. weird.

anyway i realised tat my entries no longer haf any titles. which brings abt certain thoughts altogether about me blogging. which now sounds to be pretty stupid but what the hey its still too early to sleep.

aniwae.
i got posted to serangoon jc. well it was what i expected would happen although not wat i wanTed to happen. i made the appeal down to sa aft i saw the posting and well lets just hope things work out. its kinda crazy to expect someone of such low merit to qualify into sa even under appeal but at least i noe i tried.

i played my first bball match in pl cc today( or rather ytd) it was cool man. although the match had lyk 6 quarters !?!?! which is yes, very long. i made a few of those weird moves i myself still cant comprehend wif but hey at least it went in. the overall score was something lyk 100-80. we won=). some pple haf said my style of playing has become even weirder. well tat brings about a relatively sad feeling. well previously it was kinda weird alrdy, now they say its gotten weirder. and i must admit it has kinda screwed my dribbling and shooting baskets. i, for some strange reason cant seem to put the two together nicely now which is absolutly astounding espc when u have the fact that u are starting to play compeitively and u cant even get these simple basics right. its kinda saddening.

anywae, i guess nth much has been happening except alot of bball and the posting stuff. i ll stop here for now so, yea tc pple. cya arnd.

[ Peace out! ]
at2:44 AM

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