Peace

Sunday, October 16, 2005
sickness

heyy peep.. the last week has been kinda slack.. zzz
totally determined to push harder fer tis week..

u noe wat ? A HUGE THANK YOU to all those hu tagged.. realli nice to at least noe i ve got frens hu understand and care=)

aniwae.. i m lyk beginning to get the exam bug.. lyk wtf-.- i m nt the person hu falls sick but tis is beginning to kill me..

account: last wednesday.. -->muscular spasms along back shoulder blades and forceps.. well it got better aniwae.. thursday... spasms eased over but could feel some swellin in my throat deveolping.. by fridae i self diagnosed myself to haf a throat infection due to symtoms and was lookin forward to the fever that usually comes along wif it.. zzz? ya.. well thankfullyby saturdae the throat thingy was gone and i din seem to get any fever or anything.. but another bug decided to visit me.. its called the flu bug.. started to cough pretty badly.. it got worse todae.. nw i m coughing lyk macham wan die lildat.. and to add the pile of bugs.. my nose is blowing red.. tink i got a flu bug as well.

just great.*

well other den tat i m pretty happy.. i guess.. alot of touts still come along but well will talk bout tat after the O// =)

till den all the best peep.. takkaires=)_

[ Peace out! ]
at9:07 PM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

i m super pissed now.
maybe angry,
but mostly dissapointed..

heres the stry line

so i din do well in my prelims.. most peep would sae u can forget abt going to jC already.. well i believe i can.. tats why i m pushin myself so dam hard to get in.. frens often sae 'yea sure u can do it' but i noe deep down inside tey noe i need a miracle to do it..

i believe in miracles. especially with God. i believe.

well i m not here to talk abt frens. i m here to talk abt my mum. yes u saw it. MY MOTHER OK?
was studyin in church late last nite.. mi dad and her were in the area so asked if i wanted a lift home.. so nice hor? so i got a lift from my parents.

tat was it.. I CANNOT BELIEVE IN THE LIFE OF ME TAT EVEN MY MUM DOESNT BELIEVE I CAN DO WELL. IF EVEN MY MUM DOESNT BELIEVE WHO WOULD RIGHT?
she made tis statement tat last minute work is no use.. WELL THANKS LOR. TAT MEANS I SHOULD JUST ROT? DO NTH TRY NTH AND BELIEVE NTH WORKS OUT?

i was optimistic abt my o lvls.. realli believed i could do well
but wif a mother lyk tis.. i tink i can jus fail my o lvls and nobody realli cares.. after all my mum doesnt even believe i can do well..

what more is ther to sae?

i ve lost my hope.

AND I AM SO FUCKING disappointed it had to be because of my mum.
u dunno HOW MUCH i ve put in to make myself believe.. onli to be slashed away from hu?

my mum.

well.
thanks mum.
alot.

[ Peace out! ]
at12:06 AM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005
mugging square

well.. heyy peep..

its hardcore mugging season now.. i tout i studied hard fer prelims but lookin at things now.. i tink i am lyk realli pushing the limit now..

clocking a gud 6-7 hrs a dae exclusive of sku hrs.. meaning i start at 4 till 7.. dinner and carry on frm 8 till 11.. well tats what i ve been doin kinda recently.. its nt the best yet but hey wat can i sae? limitations such as sku nt letting mi clock 12 hrs str8.. sickening..

well at least i can sae my chem is lyk getting more and more zai.. can almost do the tys wif ease man.. almost finish the chem syallabus liao.. left wif org and redox.. tmr finishing up and tats it man..

studying helps i guess.. it makes life alot more simple.. believe it or not.. been studyin so hard hardly got anytime to lyk wonder touts all over.. although i do get distracted here and there wif things..

my eyes are realli cryin fer rest nw.. they ve been lookin at books almost the whole dae.. hey man i m realli squeezing in time fer stuff to improve my studies lor.. readin as and wen i haf free time if i m nt studyin on the train or something.. geez.

kinda figured wat i wanna do aft the O lvls le.. lyk SUPER LOOKIN FORWARD LOR.. lyk who isnt right? well i in particular kinda badly..

niwaes.. got alot more to blog lar.. but kinda lazy.. eyes are killing me..

takkaire peep.

until the day i see u again.
keep in mind
misses*

[ Peace out! ]
at11:57 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

zzz..

tats lyk becoming a tagline of mine..
sucks.

been feeling realli lyk, loads of touts in my head.. carn figure out.. carn comprehend.. is it lyk jus me or is life realli pushing mi down so hard.. i keep on wondering to myself why i carn let go..

prelims result hoo har is still killing me.. geez thanks fer tagging but u carn go anywhr wif ur results tat kinda sucks but hey.. at least u got something tat wuld give u the slightest chance of getting somewhr the least.. if u get wat i mean..

alot of lyrics haf been coming to mind recently.. managed to come out wif tunes and lines fer some lyrics.. kinda cool.. at least it reflects how i feel..

been tinkin of doin crazy things. yea.. nt lyk realli going suicidal.. nt tat 'crazy'.. but as in yea.. things peep wuldnt realli tink of.. i carn help it.. somehow its still stuck within me.. i carn put it down. i dunno why either.. the facts are killing me..
please.
if onli u wuld listen..
and hear my cries..
let me tell u..
if onli u wuld hear..

[ Peace out! ]
at1:46 AM

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