Peace

Saturday, September 03, 2005
somebody had to be a btich about it..

yea.. some1 had to be a bitch about it.. i m lyk super hot headed now.. your discreetion for viewing tis blog entry is advised..

so one dae u realise something is wrong.. u try to figure out wats actually causing all the misunderstanding.. well u realise its partially ur fault.. cos u dao someone(omfg but nvm..) well nvm.. u admit str8 into ur mistake and hope fer things to start to come back working.. back into place.. she says she needs time.. u give it to her.. but let mi ask u peep out ther.. wen peep nid time to think, DOES TAT GIVE THEM A FUCKIN GUD REASON TO GO FUCKIN FLIRTING ARND WIF OTHER GUYS? u noe wat.. unless u got a problem in ur thinkin, i d tink u agree wif me.. correct mi if i m wrong.. tats wat i feel.. well tats still ok u noe.. nvm.. so wen u try to adress the topic.. she says, i m veh confused, i dunno i dunno.. DEN HU THE FUCK NOES>? Here I AM, CRYING MY FUCKIN HEART OUT, u can go and slowy think and flirt and haf fun, but for 1 fuckin moment can u think abt me? so u maybe thinkin thru all tat stuff.. BUT DOES GETTING CLOSER TO ANOTHER GUY FLIRTING WIF HIM HELP? HELL NO!

bitch part 2..tats nt jus the worse part.. so i keep on tryin to call her/sms her and watever other fuckin measures u can think of.. she doesnt pick up my calls, doesnt reply my smses NOT UNTILL 2AM AND SHE FUCKIN LIES TO ME TELLING ME I M FEELIN TIRED I WANNA REST.. the truth is she was talkin wif tat guy till so late until she couldnt talk anymore so worn out wat haf u.. TIS IS THE FUCKIN TRUTH.. AND IT REALLI HURT ME LYK FUCK OK? if she had jus told me the truth.. it d b so nice.. but no.. she choose to lie to me.. she chose to KEEP ON LYING WIF NO FUCKIN INTENTION TO LET MI IN THE LIGHT TILL I FOUND OUT MYSELF.. put yourself in my shoes peep.. how the fuck would u feel? so i carried on for so many fuckin nites waiting fer her sms or reply jus to sae' i m sorry i feel tried now.. i ll talk to u some other dae..' SHE NEVER HAD TAT OTHER DAE OK? she was merely runnign away.. i had told her so many times.. if she dint want to carry on, if she wanted to stop everything and move in different directions all she had to do was to ask and tell.. i would.. i was prepared to leave her if she was happy.. no.. tat wouldnt make her happy.. ONLI MY FUCKIN PAIN COULD.

so tats bitch part 2.. i m still cool right now.. i could control things over.. aft some fuckin long time.. u peep noe wat got her back? BECOS THE FUCKIN GUY DID SOMETHING WRONG TO HER.. IF NT FER TAT FUCKIN MISTAKE TAT PROBABLY BE STILL FLIRTING.. and me? lyk some born loser waiting at the corridor wif paper pieces on the floor.. tats ok still.. i m glad tat at least i ve got a 2nd chance to mend things..

bitch the 3rd part.. well now i m the one hu gets emotional.. i m the one having problems repairing.. can u blame mi for it? i got devasted time aft over and over again.. she told me she realised i was more den some shit to be left ALONE while she was having fun.. i told her i wanted to take things a lil more slow now.. so tat at least we could see if things were going wrong.. haha bad move.. u guys think its bad? read on to find out..

so one dae we went out to study.. its quite perfect realli.. we had out fun.. did our studyin.. went home happy.. i tried to call her.. fer a few daes.. sent afew smses.. NO REPLIES OK? wen the reply finally came.. she said she was busy. tired. gud nite. ok so wat the fuck do u want mi to make out of tat?

i was still cool about it de.. i tried to understand whr she was coming from.. BUT IF U ARE CONTIUALLY TELLING A PERSON U ARE BUSY TIRED AND FOR WADEVA OTHER FUCKIN REASON ALLL i mean ALLL THE TIME>. how hard is it to beleive animore.. tat 'reason' was used for over 2 mths btw.. u peep go tink abt it urself and tell mi if i m over sensitive or being human.

i m not gonna talk abt the last bitching.. its still inside me.. i tryin to cool it off b4 i say anything..

all tis time.. all i had wanted was to make u happy.. all my smses, calls, everything.. was to find out wat was wrong, to mend, to leave u if it made u happy.. well no.. u dint care.. u dint fuckin care wat i did it for.. all u wanted to was enjoy life.. to see MY PAIN.. well i hope u re happy now.. if u re nt i m so sorry.. go find another sucker to play wif..

tats jus abt it.. i had to let tat off my chest.. if the person ever reads tis entry.. tis is how I FEEL. if u din noe i can feel.. u prob wuld go cryin and sobing.. i ve seen it before.. tis is wat i make out of it.. if after all i wanted to care fer is gonna treat mi lyk a piece of SHIT. dun expect much from me either.

[ Peace out! ]
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