Peace

Saturday, September 10, 2005

diu.. so i m jus getting a lil more pissed den i shld b getting.. is it the 9 hrs of mugging a dae thingy or is it jus me..

dreams.. well well peep i m in the mood to blog alright.. if i dun get uber pissed sometime along the blog i guess itd b a pretty long entry..

ok.. where to get started.. its been a pretty muggging week.. averaging a gud 7-8 hrs a dae.. been mugging maths lyk shit.. i m so gonna kill myself aft the o fer all this mugging.. does it feel gud? somewat i guess. but its realli killing my system..

dreams.. now lets start to get a lil trash talk if u call it.. personally i feel its jus some reflection..
i had a dream.. i lost it.. i tried so FUCKING hard to try to get it back.. well i m pleased to say i got my dream backk.. i could feel the hope of seeing the dream come true once more burning inside of my heart.. i wish.. i hoped.. lyk i nver could feel before.. becos i tout my dream would come true.. but u noe wat peep.. THE TRUTH HURTS.. BIG TIME..

yea.. jus realised thru flipping thru some sources.. dreams dun realli come true.. unless u dream tat tmr u will b alive.. den of cos i guess ur dreams come true alot more den my.. i realli wanna thank all those out ther hu still rmb me.. somehow.. wadeva msges tey send.. its realli nice.. although i sucks tat u dun receive dem frm peep u wan to.. call mi an asshole fer tat.. i dun realli care much now..

i don wanna care animore.. i WISH i could put the past away, all these hopes and dreams away to concentrate on my O lvls.. BUT I CARN OK? if u dun noe mi well enuff well tats me.. i nver asked fer much.. i guess u could sae tats why i nvr got much.. but not the point.. peep are jus plain irgnorant.. all their care and concern is so FAKE.. its fukin surreal lar.. i dun wanna care.. but i m sorry i carn.. i haf to learn how to feel happy.. after all.. if it makes u happy.. den i shld be right? tats the way it shld be..

life realli sucks.. i noe its lyk u peep might tink tats becos i m a pessimist.. well tink again peep.. live a dae in my shoes and tell mi honestly if life is so dam nice to be in.. i m sorry..

so tis is wat life is gonna b abt.. can i change it? not by human ways no.. life wouldnt allow it.. i wish i could learn to trust and find comfort in it.. BUT WIF ALL THE FUCKIN LIES GOING ARND HOW DO I DO TAT? geezz its lyk.. wen everything is so fake how on earth do we define truth..

ok so i m getting a lil sickk now.. i wish i could jus die but.. no.
i ll live..
becos
i still believe..

man wat kind of conclussion is tis..
mixed.

on broken wings i m falling
it wun be long
on scared knees i m bleeding
gotta find a way to believe it
in a search for so long

[ Peace out! ]
at1:05 AM

_Date$>

<$Xanga_Posts$>

+++